I hop on the plane to Chicago in just five short days! This is my once a year weekend "me trip". Every year I take a trip all alone. No friends, family, students, teachers or otherwise. It's usually to a place where nobody knows who I am and I can just relax. Usually I forget about my cell phone and the Internet.
This years getaway will be a bit different but it still includes a king sizes bed in a nice hotel that's ALL MINE!
Since it is Kinky Kollege I'll blog and tweet a bit while I'm there.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Thursday, September 29, 2011
What I want
I've been thinking a lot lately about exactly what I want in life. As far as career and education I've pretty much got that figured out. Where I found myself a little lost is in the area of a relationship and the lifestyle.
Obviously I want to fall in love and be loved and all that mushy shit that every girl wants. The big question is how does the lifestyle fit into all of this.
I'm a masochist, an edge player, I like breath play, I like it when he makes me bleed, I love staples and needles and fire and bruises. Sometimes people mistake this for me not liking the softer side of things.
The thing is, the softer side of the lifestyle that sensual side is what I've been missing. However it's not something I want from just anybody. I want a Master who will cuddle with me and treat me as his pet.
I had a hard time coming to terms with this because every dom I ever talked to about this thought I was looking for a Daddy. I'M NOT! I in no way shape or form am needing a daddy. I have a dad and I'm rather indifferent when it comes to him. I haven't seen him since I was 16. Why would I go looking for that dynamic in my sexual relationships? For those that are seeking that it works it just doesn't work for me. I finally realized just a few weeks ago that while I may not want to be someones "little girl" I desperately want to be someones pet. A pet that is loved and cherished but trained to please her master. I'm not really even referring to puppy play or anything like that (though I'm not against a collar and a leash hehe). I just think that pet describes perfectly the softer side of what I seek in the lifestyle.
I think I've just had a hard time finding someone that encompasses both aspects (the rougher masochistic side and the softer pet side) of who I am in the lifestyle and so all my relationships and partnerships have been miserable failures. Some would suggest multiple partners but I can tell you that simply isn't for me. I have a jealous streak about 10 miles wide and the thought of me sharing a man is awful and I could never ask two partners to share me. Scening with more than one partner is cool but the idea of having a committed relationship with more than one person sends shivers up my spine. I applaud those with the ability to do it, I simply can't.
Anyway this is some of what has been weighing on my mind the past couple of weeks. I'm not sure if I'll ever find exactly what I'm looking for but I don't plan on settling for something less than what I seek.
Obviously I want to fall in love and be loved and all that mushy shit that every girl wants. The big question is how does the lifestyle fit into all of this.
I'm a masochist, an edge player, I like breath play, I like it when he makes me bleed, I love staples and needles and fire and bruises. Sometimes people mistake this for me not liking the softer side of things.
The thing is, the softer side of the lifestyle that sensual side is what I've been missing. However it's not something I want from just anybody. I want a Master who will cuddle with me and treat me as his pet.
I had a hard time coming to terms with this because every dom I ever talked to about this thought I was looking for a Daddy. I'M NOT! I in no way shape or form am needing a daddy. I have a dad and I'm rather indifferent when it comes to him. I haven't seen him since I was 16. Why would I go looking for that dynamic in my sexual relationships? For those that are seeking that it works it just doesn't work for me. I finally realized just a few weeks ago that while I may not want to be someones "little girl" I desperately want to be someones pet. A pet that is loved and cherished but trained to please her master. I'm not really even referring to puppy play or anything like that (though I'm not against a collar and a leash hehe). I just think that pet describes perfectly the softer side of what I seek in the lifestyle.
I think I've just had a hard time finding someone that encompasses both aspects (the rougher masochistic side and the softer pet side) of who I am in the lifestyle and so all my relationships and partnerships have been miserable failures. Some would suggest multiple partners but I can tell you that simply isn't for me. I have a jealous streak about 10 miles wide and the thought of me sharing a man is awful and I could never ask two partners to share me. Scening with more than one partner is cool but the idea of having a committed relationship with more than one person sends shivers up my spine. I applaud those with the ability to do it, I simply can't.
Anyway this is some of what has been weighing on my mind the past couple of weeks. I'm not sure if I'll ever find exactly what I'm looking for but I don't plan on settling for something less than what I seek.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Long day
It's been a long day! Went to a beautiful wedding for some dear friends though! Just wanted to post and say hello before I head to bed. Hope everyone had a lovely day!
Staples
Staples
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Sad Face :(
So, my corset came today and I was super excited. I laced it up and tried it on IT WAS TOO BIG!!! :( I was planning on wearing it out this weekend but unless I wear it with a shirt underneath there is no way it will look right and my boobs would be popping out all night. At fetish events it wouldn't be a problem but it's not really a fetish event plus that's not how a corset is suppose to fit! I also have to lace it up to the point that there is absolutely no gap in the back in order to get it even remotely tight on my waste. I can't decide if I need to go down one or two sizes to get the right fit. I guess I gotta find something else to wear.
On a happier note, I did get one of my pairs of shoes in today and they are super sexy. I likes them ALOT!
So anyway I guess I gotta wait another week or so to get my corset. I guess it's ok as long as I have it by the time Kinky Kollege comes around.
Oh I also bought my staple gun today too! My personal toy bag is coming along nicely.
On a happier note, I did get one of my pairs of shoes in today and they are super sexy. I likes them ALOT!
So anyway I guess I gotta wait another week or so to get my corset. I guess it's ok as long as I have it by the time Kinky Kollege comes around.
Oh I also bought my staple gun today too! My personal toy bag is coming along nicely.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Sixty Days!
The countdown to my cruise has begun!
It is officially 60 days until we set sail!
In November me, my mom, and sister will be going on a cruise. It has been years since we have gotten to do something as a family because we all lead such different and busy lives. We are all super stoked about it.
Anyway, don't be suprised if I post a lot about the cruise lol. I'm gonna get more and more excited as time goes by!
It is officially 60 days until we set sail!
In November me, my mom, and sister will be going on a cruise. It has been years since we have gotten to do something as a family because we all lead such different and busy lives. We are all super stoked about it.
Anyway, don't be suprised if I post a lot about the cruise lol. I'm gonna get more and more excited as time goes by!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
I did it!
So,
I finally got up the nerve and have made the decision to attend Kinky Kollege this year! I just booked my flight and paid for my registration. Now I just need to book my room and we will be all set. I'm a little nervouse but overall I am incredibly super duper excited!!! Not real sure about the whole going alone thing but even if I don't find a roommate I'm gonna go. It will be fun and I'll learn a lot I'm sure!
talk to y'all laterz
Staples
I finally got up the nerve and have made the decision to attend Kinky Kollege this year! I just booked my flight and paid for my registration. Now I just need to book my room and we will be all set. I'm a little nervouse but overall I am incredibly super duper excited!!! Not real sure about the whole going alone thing but even if I don't find a roommate I'm gonna go. It will be fun and I'll learn a lot I'm sure!
talk to y'all laterz
Staples
Blah :(
So I really do not feel good today. It's just your typical cold with a stuffy nose, sore throat, headache that sort of thing. If I weren't so tired I could handle it but I have not slept well the past few nights. Oh well, I've decided not to go to class tonight so maybe I can catch up on some sleep.
Anyway I just wanted to say hello since I said I would post something. I got confirmation that my needles shipped as well as my corset and one of the pairs of heels I ordered. I went a little nuts witht he whole online shopping thing the last few days. Thankfully once or twice a year I can afford to do that.
On another note, I think I'm gonna get to go to Kinky Kollege in Chicago this year. I'll have to go alone more than likely but thats ok. I decided I'm tired of waiting until I have a partner to do things like this. I have tried to go to a few other kink related weekend events but they always fall on weekends I'm too busy to go. Kinky Kollege just seems to have fallen on the perfect weekend for me.
Anyway I may not be going to class but thanks to the wonders of online teaching I still gotta participate in the discussion we've been having so I'm gonna read a bit and hope I don't fall asleep while doing so.
Talk to y'all later
Staples
Anyway I just wanted to say hello since I said I would post something. I got confirmation that my needles shipped as well as my corset and one of the pairs of heels I ordered. I went a little nuts witht he whole online shopping thing the last few days. Thankfully once or twice a year I can afford to do that.
On another note, I think I'm gonna get to go to Kinky Kollege in Chicago this year. I'll have to go alone more than likely but thats ok. I decided I'm tired of waiting until I have a partner to do things like this. I have tried to go to a few other kink related weekend events but they always fall on weekends I'm too busy to go. Kinky Kollege just seems to have fallen on the perfect weekend for me.
Anyway I may not be going to class but thanks to the wonders of online teaching I still gotta participate in the discussion we've been having so I'm gonna read a bit and hope I don't fall asleep while doing so.
Talk to y'all later
Staples
Monday, September 12, 2011
I just wanted everyone to know...
That I am definitely NOT an alcoholic. However I really like alcohol! 
Evolution
I started this blog at the beginning of the year (January 2, to be precise). I think it is safe to say I've changed a lot in the past 8 months. If you notice, my profile is sporting a dandy new nick name (I'll explain later) and I've managed to broaden my horizons by quite a bit. Not everything that's happened has been good but all of it has made me a stronger, better person.
I guess I'll just start from the beginning!
On January 27th I reconnected with a kinky friend I had met via collarme a couple years ago. We'll call him tom. Tom and I went out for drinks, had a great time and went back to his house for some kinky fun. That night I was introduced to foot worship and needle play. Both were types of play I had been curious about but never tried. From then on tom and I grew very close. We became intimate play partners. A couple weeks after our initiial date, he introduced me to his local kink community. I instantly fell in love with the group. I had finally found a place to call "home". I connected with some amazing wonderful people.
For the next six months, tom and I would continue to enjoy each others company. We began exploring some edgier types of play including needles, blood, breathplay and most importantly staples. The first time we played with the staple gun he used it to staple my pussy closed. Oh my GOD it was sooo fucking hot. He proceded to text a picture of my stapled pussy to several members of our group and from then on I've been called staples. The name stuck so much that I even made that my fetlife handle.
I thought my relationship with him was moving forward nicely. We weren't seriously romantic or "in love" but the chemistry was there, I cared for him deeply, he called me his girlfriend often and I was under the impression that we were in a monogomous relationship.
Alas I was apparently wrong! Three or four months into our relationship an ex came back into his life. They were just friends and she was in a tough spot and he felt like he should help her out. She started staying with him and his family due to a lack of other living arrangements. Prior to her returning to his life he had confessed to me that sometimes he felt he still had feelings for her. I expressed my concern about the ex and my place in his life and he told me everything would be alright. My first clue that things weren't alright should have been when he told me that if he ever started dating someone else he would make sure that whoever he was dating knew that there had to be time for me in his life. However I ignored that comment as just his funny way of saying he cared. Anyway two months ago I was preparing to go see him and spend the weekend with him. We had plans to attend a party at a friends house. I hadn't seen him in nearly a month and I was so excited. I called to tell him I was on my way and I would meet him at his house but he told me he was already at the party. I thought nothing of it. I arrived at our friends house, passed around hugs, exchanged greetings and then set out to look for him. I couldn't find him so I asked our hostess where he was. He was outside so I sat on the couch to wait for him. Thankfully our hostess is an observant person. She slipped up and whispered in my ear "you know he's here with ______ right?" My heart instantly crumbled. I just looked at her kind of wide eyed, shook my head and said thanks for telling me.
I had to find an excuse to go out to my car or I was going to start bawling right there in front of my friends. I instantly called my mom and told her what was going on. I had driven two hours and was NOT about to just turn around go home. I was there to have a good time and visit friends. Mom helped me cheer up. I asked her to tell me a joke so I could walk back in the house laughing. I did my best to hold it together but in the end I had a really rough night.
Thankfully I had a great group of friends to surround me that night. He and his date left early at the request of the hostess and I proceeded to get insanely drunk. I cried, drank, laughed, cried, drank some more and finally puked my guts out. But it was on that incredibly horrible night that I realized that despite the fact that tom turned out to be a complete and utter jack ass he had give me a home that might not have otherwise found.
I haven't had to see tom since that night but I've managed to expand my horizons even more. I've tried fireplay, explored my bisexual sice, made some great friends and just Saturday night I was suspended for the first time and introduced to what electrical play feels like.
Last night I bought the supplies and an instruction manual to help me delve into the world of artistic needle play. I'm also purchasing my own staple gun since the one I was using belonged to my ex. Now, I just have to find some volunteers to explore it with me!
I'm sorry that a good partnership came to an end but I'm very glad that I am a part of a wonderful group of people that can love and accept both of us.
I have absolutely changed as a person. I'm evolving as a submissive/bottom and as a person in general.
I still have down days where I listen to depressing music, drink wine and cry about being alone but I always manage to find my smile again and I know that despite the fact that I go to sleep in an empty bed, I am definitely not completely alone. I have friends, family, and most of all God to support and love me.
I guess I'll just start from the beginning!
On January 27th I reconnected with a kinky friend I had met via collarme a couple years ago. We'll call him tom. Tom and I went out for drinks, had a great time and went back to his house for some kinky fun. That night I was introduced to foot worship and needle play. Both were types of play I had been curious about but never tried. From then on tom and I grew very close. We became intimate play partners. A couple weeks after our initiial date, he introduced me to his local kink community. I instantly fell in love with the group. I had finally found a place to call "home". I connected with some amazing wonderful people.
For the next six months, tom and I would continue to enjoy each others company. We began exploring some edgier types of play including needles, blood, breathplay and most importantly staples. The first time we played with the staple gun he used it to staple my pussy closed. Oh my GOD it was sooo fucking hot. He proceded to text a picture of my stapled pussy to several members of our group and from then on I've been called staples. The name stuck so much that I even made that my fetlife handle.
I thought my relationship with him was moving forward nicely. We weren't seriously romantic or "in love" but the chemistry was there, I cared for him deeply, he called me his girlfriend often and I was under the impression that we were in a monogomous relationship.
Alas I was apparently wrong! Three or four months into our relationship an ex came back into his life. They were just friends and she was in a tough spot and he felt like he should help her out. She started staying with him and his family due to a lack of other living arrangements. Prior to her returning to his life he had confessed to me that sometimes he felt he still had feelings for her. I expressed my concern about the ex and my place in his life and he told me everything would be alright. My first clue that things weren't alright should have been when he told me that if he ever started dating someone else he would make sure that whoever he was dating knew that there had to be time for me in his life. However I ignored that comment as just his funny way of saying he cared. Anyway two months ago I was preparing to go see him and spend the weekend with him. We had plans to attend a party at a friends house. I hadn't seen him in nearly a month and I was so excited. I called to tell him I was on my way and I would meet him at his house but he told me he was already at the party. I thought nothing of it. I arrived at our friends house, passed around hugs, exchanged greetings and then set out to look for him. I couldn't find him so I asked our hostess where he was. He was outside so I sat on the couch to wait for him. Thankfully our hostess is an observant person. She slipped up and whispered in my ear "you know he's here with ______ right?" My heart instantly crumbled. I just looked at her kind of wide eyed, shook my head and said thanks for telling me.
I had to find an excuse to go out to my car or I was going to start bawling right there in front of my friends. I instantly called my mom and told her what was going on. I had driven two hours and was NOT about to just turn around go home. I was there to have a good time and visit friends. Mom helped me cheer up. I asked her to tell me a joke so I could walk back in the house laughing. I did my best to hold it together but in the end I had a really rough night.
Thankfully I had a great group of friends to surround me that night. He and his date left early at the request of the hostess and I proceeded to get insanely drunk. I cried, drank, laughed, cried, drank some more and finally puked my guts out. But it was on that incredibly horrible night that I realized that despite the fact that tom turned out to be a complete and utter jack ass he had give me a home that might not have otherwise found.
I haven't had to see tom since that night but I've managed to expand my horizons even more. I've tried fireplay, explored my bisexual sice, made some great friends and just Saturday night I was suspended for the first time and introduced to what electrical play feels like.
Last night I bought the supplies and an instruction manual to help me delve into the world of artistic needle play. I'm also purchasing my own staple gun since the one I was using belonged to my ex. Now, I just have to find some volunteers to explore it with me!
I'm sorry that a good partnership came to an end but I'm very glad that I am a part of a wonderful group of people that can love and accept both of us.
I have absolutely changed as a person. I'm evolving as a submissive/bottom and as a person in general.
I still have down days where I listen to depressing music, drink wine and cry about being alone but I always manage to find my smile again and I know that despite the fact that I go to sleep in an empty bed, I am definitely not completely alone. I have friends, family, and most of all God to support and love me.
Checking the app
This is just me checking out the blogger app. Maybe since my iPhone is permanently attached to me I'll blog a little more frequently.
I suck....
At this whole keeping up with a blog thing. I've installed blogging apps on my phone and such so hopefully I will get better at it. A LOT has happened in my life since my last post so I'll have to catch you up on it soon.
For now I just wanted to report that I just purchased my first corset and I'm super excited about it! I also purchased two pairs of incredibly sexy penthouse heels. Yes, I was in a money spending mood today!
I'll post pictures as soon as they come in!
For now I just wanted to report that I just purchased my first corset and I'm super excited about it! I also purchased two pairs of incredibly sexy penthouse heels. Yes, I was in a money spending mood today!
I'll post pictures as soon as they come in!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Music Monday
One of my favorite things in life is music. I think that music can be found that is suitable for any situation. I rarely go anywhere without my iPod because I consider it my background music for life. I asked for a Pandora One subscription for my birthday and actually got it for Christmas *yay* because I love playing with the stations and making them play only the types of music appropriate for that station.
I have a very depressing play list on there that I probably shouldn't listen too but sometimes a sad song just makes you feel better. It's hard to explain.
Anyway the point is I love music. I love music of all kinds. I listen to rock, rap, country, christian, jazz, pop, oldies, even a little opera. Seriously folks I love it all. Yes there are some songs I hate but I can't think of an entire genre of music that I absolutely despise.
At the top of my list right now is:
Ok there are like a million other songs that are current favorites but I wont sit here and list them all. These are in no particular order just songs I've been listening to lately.
- Awake and Alive by Skillet
- Love the Way You Lie by Eminem and Rhianna
- Felt Good On My Lips by Tim McGraw
- Peacocks/Pink Monsters by Judgement Day
- Somewhere with You by Kenny Chesney
- Don't You Wanna Stay by Jason Aldean and Kelly Clarkson (I really want tickets to his concert next weekend)
- House that Built Me by Miranda Lambert
- All I Do Is Win by DJ Khaled (ok really I just like dancing to this when I go out)
- No Hands by Waka Flocka (I hated this song but my best friend is a skinny ass white boy and he walks around singing this in a high pitched voice so it's one of my favorites now)
Thursday, January 13, 2011
It's just me
Hey everyone happy Thursday!
I'm sitting at my desk bored out of my mind so I thought I would post something. What I have absolutely no idea but here goes.
I suppose I should tell people a little more about myself.
I'm a 24 (almost 25) year old graduate student. I am a political science junkie but I'm not pursuing that career path anymore. At the moment I am working on my Masters Degree in College Student Affairs. I work at a university where I run a residence hall. I love the fact that I have the opportunity to impact the lives of young people.
I became interested in BDSM when I was 14 years old. Thanks to the internet I stumbled upon it and it simply made sense. It explained all my strange urges and cravings. When I was 16 or 17 I discovered Gor and I started reading the books. I made a bunch of friends and identified as a Gorean slave for the first couple years of my adult life. It wasn't really what I was looking for though so I started reading more about BDSM in general. I was 18 or 19 when I had my first encounter with rope and I've loved it ever since.
I am a very submissive female and I do identify as a slave. I generally refuse to have the slave versus submissive conversation though occasionally I'll share my opinions on that.
I am seeking a LTR 24.7 (sorta) relationship that ultimately results in a collar and a lifetime committment. Until I find that however I am not against letting a friend tie me up! When I say sorta on the 24.7 part it just simply means I am a busy girl and school comes first at the moment.
Now that I'm done sounding like a personals ad lets move on.
I love to sing. I sing karaoke, I sing in church, I sing in the shower, and I sing at the top of my lungs while I'm driving down the road. It's one of the things I love about my hour and a half drive to class.
I also love a good glass of wine with a well cooked meal. I am a wannabe chef sometimes. I enjoy cooking italian because it's simple. I also enjoy grilling steaks, burgers, chicken . . . pretty much any kind of meat. When I was an undergrad I belonged to a group of friends known as B.O.M.B (Brotherhood of meant and beer). We got together about once a month and drank beer (well I drank rum) and had meat fest and that isn't as perverted as it sounds.
I'm intelligent and I'm not afraid to admit that. I don't generally toot my own horn but I don't hide my intelligence and sometimes that intimidates people. I love to discuss philosophy, politics, religion (yeah the three things that make enemies the fastest!) and any number of things. I do however suck at math. I had to take college algebra 3 times. I'm also not a science geek but I made A's in all my science classes. I thought it was going to kill me though!
Wow I'm talking about myself entirely too much. But it is my blog right?
But hey my supervisor just called me and I have to do some real work now.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day. I'm going to finish up here and then walk the whole 10 feet to my apartment and cook some dinner and drink some wine.
Staples
I'm sitting at my desk bored out of my mind so I thought I would post something. What I have absolutely no idea but here goes.
I suppose I should tell people a little more about myself.
I'm a 24 (almost 25) year old graduate student. I am a political science junkie but I'm not pursuing that career path anymore. At the moment I am working on my Masters Degree in College Student Affairs. I work at a university where I run a residence hall. I love the fact that I have the opportunity to impact the lives of young people.
I became interested in BDSM when I was 14 years old. Thanks to the internet I stumbled upon it and it simply made sense. It explained all my strange urges and cravings. When I was 16 or 17 I discovered Gor and I started reading the books. I made a bunch of friends and identified as a Gorean slave for the first couple years of my adult life. It wasn't really what I was looking for though so I started reading more about BDSM in general. I was 18 or 19 when I had my first encounter with rope and I've loved it ever since.
I am a very submissive female and I do identify as a slave. I generally refuse to have the slave versus submissive conversation though occasionally I'll share my opinions on that.
I am seeking a LTR 24.7 (sorta) relationship that ultimately results in a collar and a lifetime committment. Until I find that however I am not against letting a friend tie me up! When I say sorta on the 24.7 part it just simply means I am a busy girl and school comes first at the moment.
Now that I'm done sounding like a personals ad lets move on.
I love to sing. I sing karaoke, I sing in church, I sing in the shower, and I sing at the top of my lungs while I'm driving down the road. It's one of the things I love about my hour and a half drive to class.
I also love a good glass of wine with a well cooked meal. I am a wannabe chef sometimes. I enjoy cooking italian because it's simple. I also enjoy grilling steaks, burgers, chicken . . . pretty much any kind of meat. When I was an undergrad I belonged to a group of friends known as B.O.M.B (Brotherhood of meant and beer). We got together about once a month and drank beer (well I drank rum) and had meat fest and that isn't as perverted as it sounds.
I'm intelligent and I'm not afraid to admit that. I don't generally toot my own horn but I don't hide my intelligence and sometimes that intimidates people. I love to discuss philosophy, politics, religion (yeah the three things that make enemies the fastest!) and any number of things. I do however suck at math. I had to take college algebra 3 times. I'm also not a science geek but I made A's in all my science classes. I thought it was going to kill me though!
Wow I'm talking about myself entirely too much. But it is my blog right?
But hey my supervisor just called me and I have to do some real work now.
Hope everyone has a wonderful day. I'm going to finish up here and then walk the whole 10 feet to my apartment and cook some dinner and drink some wine.
Staples
Sunday, January 9, 2011
GRRR . . .
I'm a bit irritated today. We just closed out our spring training and I don't feel like any training was done. For those of you that don't know I'm residence hall director and typically I help train my staff and the staffs of four other residence halls on campus. However we recently got a new Director of Housing who decided that he wanted to do training all by himself (and I do mean all by himself) but yet all he did was get up and give motivational speeches for like 4 hours on one day and the rest of the time we haven't done anything except cook dinner for one another. Now of course I teach my staff how to do the right things but that's not what training is about. Training is about learning together as one big team not listening to a motivational speech about challenging our beliefs. Some of it was great and could be worked into real training but overall noone learned anything and all my girls are pissed because they gave up a whole week of Christmas break for this.
Anyway I just needed to vent this has been frustrating me all week long. The problem is I'm not sure how to tell my boss that training sucked without saying hey your training sucked. I'm probably going to send him some corny e-mail offering my suggestions for improvements but it's going to end up screaming that I hated training (which I did0.
Blah gotta go get my day going hope everyone has a wonderful day.
Staoles
Anyway I just needed to vent this has been frustrating me all week long. The problem is I'm not sure how to tell my boss that training sucked without saying hey your training sucked. I'm probably going to send him some corny e-mail offering my suggestions for improvements but it's going to end up screaming that I hated training (which I did0.
Blah gotta go get my day going hope everyone has a wonderful day.
Staoles
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Insomnia sucks
The past several days have been rather busy. I flew back to Arkansas on Monday and drove three hours from the airport to my hometown where I immediately started working to prepare for the return of my staff for the upcoming semester. They began arriving yesterday and today started the kickoff of our spring training event.
Now I'm stuck with a bad case of insomnia. Normally if I can't sleep a half a glass of wine or a little bit of my favorite rum will knock me out but tonight I'm still wide awake 2 hours later. Tell me is it bad that I use alcohol as my sleeping pill? I don't do it often every couple weeks I have a night where I toss and turn like crazy and can't sleep so I pour some wine. I absolutely adore wine so I usually always have some in the apartment.
I'm so tired my eyes wont stay open as I sit her typing this but the moment I lay down my mind begins to race and my heart starts pounding like crazy (at least it feels that way) and I won't be able to sleep. I HATE this!
I've been thinking about a format for this blog. I think I'll do some themed days here and there that are set aside for a specific type of topic.
We'll see. My brain hurts I just want to sleep.
I hope everyone is sleeping peacefully.
tattoo_rose
Now I'm stuck with a bad case of insomnia. Normally if I can't sleep a half a glass of wine or a little bit of my favorite rum will knock me out but tonight I'm still wide awake 2 hours later. Tell me is it bad that I use alcohol as my sleeping pill? I don't do it often every couple weeks I have a night where I toss and turn like crazy and can't sleep so I pour some wine. I absolutely adore wine so I usually always have some in the apartment.
I'm so tired my eyes wont stay open as I sit her typing this but the moment I lay down my mind begins to race and my heart starts pounding like crazy (at least it feels that way) and I won't be able to sleep. I HATE this!
I've been thinking about a format for this blog. I think I'll do some themed days here and there that are set aside for a specific type of topic.
We'll see. My brain hurts I just want to sleep.
I hope everyone is sleeping peacefully.
tattoo_rose
Monday, January 3, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Who Am I?
A lot of people try to define me based on the facts they know about me. As a young teenager and young adult I was "the pentecostal girl", to my childhood friends I am the nerd they can't relate with and to my family who doesn't understand I'm a girl who's just looking for an abusive relationship.
The fact is I am none of those things. Yes I grew up a pentecostal but I prefer to be called a Christian. Yes I'm incredibly intelligent (hey sometimes you gotta toot your own horn because nobody else is gonna do it for you) but I am by no means someone you can't relate to. I'm very down to earth and easy going. I love to have fun but I'm also a fan of intelligence. I may be a masochistic submissive with slave tendancies but I am most certainly not looking to be abused. I am a strong almost dominant person when it comes to school, work and that sort of thing I just happen to take on a different role in my relationships. Believe me anyone who lays a hand on me with anything but the best of intentions will wind up in jail.
So who am I? I'm Yvonne, I'm a lover of all things musical, I'm a closet baseball fan, and I'm a karaoke queen. I'm the submissive who will give you everything I've got and just keep on giving until you stop me. I'm also stubborn as hell and I have a shy streak about a mile wide. I am a secret admirer of tattoos and piercings though I have to be careful where I put them.
I have been described as complex by many individuals and I use to take that as somewhat of an insult. Now I understand it's a compliment. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Through this blog I hope to continue to break the stereotypes that have been placed on me by people who just don't know any better.
I invited you to join me on my journey.
Until next time!
tattoo_rose
The fact is I am none of those things. Yes I grew up a pentecostal but I prefer to be called a Christian. Yes I'm incredibly intelligent (hey sometimes you gotta toot your own horn because nobody else is gonna do it for you) but I am by no means someone you can't relate to. I'm very down to earth and easy going. I love to have fun but I'm also a fan of intelligence. I may be a masochistic submissive with slave tendancies but I am most certainly not looking to be abused. I am a strong almost dominant person when it comes to school, work and that sort of thing I just happen to take on a different role in my relationships. Believe me anyone who lays a hand on me with anything but the best of intentions will wind up in jail.
So who am I? I'm Yvonne, I'm a lover of all things musical, I'm a closet baseball fan, and I'm a karaoke queen. I'm the submissive who will give you everything I've got and just keep on giving until you stop me. I'm also stubborn as hell and I have a shy streak about a mile wide. I am a secret admirer of tattoos and piercings though I have to be careful where I put them.
I have been described as complex by many individuals and I use to take that as somewhat of an insult. Now I understand it's a compliment. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Through this blog I hope to continue to break the stereotypes that have been placed on me by people who just don't know any better.
I invited you to join me on my journey.
Until next time!
tattoo_rose
E-mail Check
Hello again!
Just making sure my e-mail is properly connected so I can post more quickly when I need to! I'm about to be homeward bound so excited! Two weeks is entirely long enough for a vacation at the parents house.
tattoo_rose
Hello and Happy New Year
Hello and Happy New Year! I hope that 2011 is your best year yet.
My name is Yvonne and I'm a 24 (almost 25) year old Graduate student/BDSM submissive girl. I've been blogging for years but I've always kept this part of me away from the blogs unless it was on fetlife or some other BDSM website.
I decided however that this year is going to be different so I ditched my old blog and decided to go for a new one that is a mixture of all sides of me.
It's almost 3 in the morning and right now I have to go finish packing to fly back home. I've been in California for 2 weeks visiting my family. I'll post again later today.
I hope my readers will enjoy this blog as much as they have others that I have written in the past.
My name is Yvonne and I'm a 24 (almost 25) year old Graduate student/BDSM submissive girl. I've been blogging for years but I've always kept this part of me away from the blogs unless it was on fetlife or some other BDSM website.
I decided however that this year is going to be different so I ditched my old blog and decided to go for a new one that is a mixture of all sides of me.
It's almost 3 in the morning and right now I have to go finish packing to fly back home. I've been in California for 2 weeks visiting my family. I'll post again later today.
I hope my readers will enjoy this blog as much as they have others that I have written in the past.
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